Turning 57

Last evening as the sun was descending the western skies my mind was flooded with so many thoughts and emotions. The journey of 57 years was going to be behind and a new chapter would start from the next day. I watched my one and only constant companion for all these years, the sun. Every day it rises renewing hope and takes leave with a promise to return the next morning. 

This year for the first time the younger of my two kids is totally independent. Both kids now have degrees and their own income. I will hope they are also emotionally equipped to navigate their path. I remember the words of my mother in law when my first child was born. “This is the beginning of your longest residency” she said to me at the time. I guess I have completed my residency now and it is time to figure out what to do next. 

A strange coincidence that 57 is also the milestone when I can give a one year notice to my job if I intend to retire. Except I am not sure at this time if that’s what I want to do. 

I miss my father today for he was the architect of my life. I wonder if he would have thoughts on what I should do moving forwards. I am in a good position today in every way because of the foundation laid down by my parents and teachers, the love showered upon me by my mother in law and in laws and the precious friends that have been with me through thick and thin. Yet each day seems like uncharted territory. 

My father in Heaven , the good Lord, also has done so much for me at every step of my existence. In fact HE has done much more for me than my parents. HE filled in where they couldn’t. Yet the difference is that I have HIM with me always. I don’t have my father with me anymore. Just memories and a heart filled with love and gratitude 🙏🏼🙏🏼

Saree is a rare Thanjavur ikat weave. This luscious silk is woven with ikat in its warp. See my previous post with more details on the saree.