Baba’s Birthday

 Dear Baba’s birthday today!

He would be 86 today.

He continues to be in the thoughts. 

Wrote down the thoughts that occupied the mind today:

Each of us needs to get out of the shadows of our parent(s) and find ourselves.

If we are honest, more than likely, we may find that we are not different from them.

Yet the exercise of finding ourselves independently is essential. It brings great humility, gratitude and renewed respect and confidence. Identifying our own faults makes us seek their forgiveness rather than show the audacious arrogance to forgive them.

Much gratitude to everything Dad did for me and the lessons I learned from him. 

Remembering him allows to experience all the emotions that come with being human. Experiencing them in the raw form has become increasingly obsolete. Reliving them under the pretext of old memories allows to retain understanding of other fellow humans. The simple joys, the unconditional love, the struggles, the dysfunction, the breakdowns, the oscillations between hope and despair, the fear of losing people, the betrayals, the doubting, the getting up over and over again, and in the midst of all this, helping whoever needs help. It was all a bit too much sometimes. But that’s what made life both real and unreal. 

I wouldn’t be here today, literally and figuratively, if it wasn’t for him and aai. No amount of humility and gratitude can ever be enough 🙏🏼🙏🏼💕💕